all match days are good days, in my book, but yesterday could have been better. it was my fault that i didn't make is so though; i really can't blame anyone else around me. it's all about attitude. instead of letting the #1 girls get to me, i should have embraced the difficulties with a simle. we played Archer yesterday (away) and laney and i didn't do so hot in our first match. we were down 0-4 and managed to come back 4-6, still losing it, but at least we put up a fight. it just really frusterated me since last time we beat these girls 6-1 and i didn't feel like we were playing badly. eventally (at the point we were down love-4) ms. admiraal tells both of us to stay back and the just rally, letting them make the mistake. this obviously worked for the next four games in our favor, but we still ended up losing the match. for some reason, i really let the girl's bad attitudes and poor line calls effect me and walked off the court with much more of an attitude than i should have. it's not like i did anything to really show bad sportsmanship, but my mood shouldn't have been effected by something so trivial, like the other girls or the loss of a game. not, that i think it's always a bad thing to be upset...i think it can show passion, but i guess i just feel guilty.
i think i'm just one of those people who, in order to let things go, i need to simply be angry for a minute. it takes me a minute to pull myself together and then simply let it roll off my back. although most times i like consolation in a moment of anger, but sometimes i really don't want to "talk it out" (if it has to do with sports that is). unfortunately laney is the type of person who likes to talk through things instead of being mad, and when i'm mad and she wants to talk...it just isn't a good combo. we didn't get mad at eachother or anything, but i probably didn't show the best attitude towards her...i should have been more paticent. but, these are just things in the past now; i'll try and just remember them in order to work on the future. i did apologize for not letting the match go as easily as i should have and we had fun in our last two.
perhaps i'm just a bit edgy right now, since season is coming to a close (tomorrow is our last team match). it feels like it just started and i just keep thinking about how much i'm going to miss it. i know there are worse things in life, but i can't help feeling upset and i think that is one of the worst things of all. no matter what i do, i can't change the way i'm going to feel. sure i can have a posotive outlook on change and look ahead to all the other great things that are to come, but no matter what i do i will miss tennis when it's over. oh well, i will just have to come to terms with that and move on...i'll look forward to track, i guess :)
well, i think this is just about enough for now. wish us luck against CAMS tomorrow...we are going to need it. all i can ask for is i play my best and embrace anything that comes my way with a good outlook and attitude.
thanks for checking in and sorry that, that post wasn't more interesting or upbeat...hopefully i'll have a better one tomorrow for you all.
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Yes, you CAN look forward to track!
& I am posotive that eventally you will look back on that and laugh... or cry. But remember to simle, even if you're frusterated. And try to be paticent with Laney.
:P sorry, I thought I'd get creative with the spelling mistakes. I'm a nut when it comes to spelling. I need PERFECTION!
This rough is so thick, we're doomed!!!!
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