it's difficult to say goodbye

but i really can't believe how difficult it truly was. this was my last day of high school ever and much of the day was spent in tears. it started with august's heart warming message she wrote on my yearbook page and just continued from there. walking out of T.A. for the last time, and after talking to ms. admiraal, i hurried to english class with tears rolling down my face, after school while walking with grace and amy, i began crying (at least amy was too at this point). it's weird. and i find the whole experience weird for a couple of reasons. first, because it feels odd to know that i'm not coming back to this place that has been my life for the last four years. i'm not going to be with the people that have been such a huge part of my life, i will no longer see some of the teachers that have completely shaped my life, and for the first time in six years i won't be a student of Valley Christian. but nothing could have prepared me for what i feel like, which is the other part of why this whole thing is just so difficult.
i know that God has plans for me and i know that i will have an amazing time at Westmont. hey, probably by this time next year i won't even know why i was so upset over moving on. of course i'm excited and i do feel completely ready to move on, it's just i wish i could move on and not have to say goodbye. i wish i could move on knowing that the beautiful, amazing people God has put in my life will always be there, standing beside me. but, the reality is no one can ever know what the future holds. all we can do is live in the here and now and hope for the best.
honestly what i'm going to miss the most is the teachers who have shared so much of their wisdom and always been there cheering me on. my teachers, i believe, have really made my high school experience what it was. especially people like ms. admiraal and mrs. cortes, whom i'm very greatful to have gotten to know on a personal level.
i know most people aren't this sentimental about graduating high school, but the fact is that i have just really loved my time at Valley and truly had some great memories.
i guess my feelings can be summed up in these statements:

Ready to move on

But I don't want to let go

God, be my refuge

"For He who began a good work in you will perfect it until the day of Jesus Christ"

Philippians 1:6

i'll be okay :) it's just hard for the time being.

hey at least i get to go back all next week for yearbook haha