anxiety

lately i've been noticing that i seem to be extremly anxious all the time. for example, i get home and i can't wait for school the next day, then i get to school and can't wait for tennis practice, then when tennis is over, i can't wait to get home, i get home and then the cycle starts all over again. why can't i just be content to live in the moment? maybe i'm making too big of a deal of this because i know that i am not anxious for the end of this year. or perhaps it is just me making too much of an effort to avoid focusing on the future. i almost feel like i wish i could just slow time down. i don't know...i just don't understand why it is so hard for me to simply take each day as it comes instead of worrying about what i might say to a person when i see them the next day or about how i will answer a question that might never even come. i guess i'm just confused as to why i feel this way and am at a loss for how i can overcome it. i don't even think it has anything to do with my homework or grades, since i've had a minimal amount of homework compared to last year and my grades are looking pretty good as of right now. honestly i'm not stressed, so what is this? is this my way of trying to avoid dealing with the things i know that are coming?
if this sounds like i'm upset or frustrated, i'm really not. on the contrary i've been really really happy lately; i just wanted to clear my head a bit...sometimes i find writing about whats on my mind helps. hopefully i'll come to a conclusion and a solution in the next few days, but perhaps not...we shall see.

in other news that is not so very confusing, i've got another two matches this week! tomorrow's is home against Whittier Christian, who were second to us in our league last year (they also moved up a league with us). so, tomorrow's match should be quite an interesting one. pray that we can all play a good match to the best of our ability! then on thursday, we've got a match against Brentwood...that'll be a drive, but i look forward to it. if anyone has time and would like to come out and support us tomorrow afternoon, that would be much appreciated!
:)